I have been reading Francis Chan's book Crazy Love and read this paragraph last night after asking God all day all the whys of the situation:
Can you worship a God who isn't obligated to explain His actions to you? Could it be your arrogance that makes you think God owes you an explanation?
Now for those of you who know me, I like straightforwardness, simplicity, and clarity. I don't know if I could have had a more blunt response to all my questions. Of course Chan's thoughts are no different than God's response to Job. They were exactly what I needed to hear.
God even gave me an answer to my "what to do next" question by reminding me of my own words to a friend last week. She was dealing with a very difficult situation and I encouraged her to think and meditate on how big and good God is. It is always easier to give the advice instead of receive it. When it is my turn to live what I know, will I be faithful or will I be all talk? In His providential care, God had given me means to deal with my current situation. I am sure that in the future, when the whys and hows are answered, God's foreseeing care and guidance will be obvious to us.
Things have calmed down and those initial urgent feelings have subsided. Micah and I feel like we have a better plan to deal with the future. Furthermore, we had a great week in Richmond, KY. Micah went there to help with a CFA that had just recently opened. I left my entire wardrobe in Louisville, so I spent a lot of time at a new shopping center being creative with clearance clothing!
Here the boys are sitting on their favorite thing at the shopping center; the fountain! I was sure one of them was going to fall in, but they were careful~
Here are the boys in the hotel after on our last night in Richmond resting peacefully: